Hey what’s up hello
While the past two Blogmas posts have been more fun & festive, I’ve been in the mood to get real. To share a little bit about what’s going on in my life and open up to you.
You may have noticed, too, that I added a new page on my blog called “Realness“. I’m really excited about this space where I can just get real about all different kinds of topics. From things like college, inner thoughts, personal struggles, and just generally being honest and straight-forward about things like goals, emotions, and advice.
Don’t get me wrong, I love the lighthearted lifestyle content that I both create and consume. But sometimes it feels lacking in substance. While I’m interested in talking about beauty and style, I’m also interested in talking about the struggles of college. While seasonal content makes me feel inspired, reading about someone else’s story makes me feel connected.
So, with that being said, you can expect a lot more of us getting real with each other on here.
Life Update Part 1. College
If you don’t already know, I transferred colleges this semester. It was something that I kept quiet about from most people. But, I figured I couldn’t be the only one who didn’t love their college and needed something different. If you want to read my whole post about why I transferred colleges, you can read the post here.
Recently, my oldest brother came home, and he asked me how school was. It honestly felt so weird yet good to only have positive things to say abut college, because it was the opposite when I was at my previous school. I used to come home on breaks crying that I didn’t want to go back to school, and now I’ve hardly missed a day of classes.
So far so good.
With one week left of the semester, I can sincerely rate this semester at an A- or a B+. Of course, nothing is perfect. But, there were so many good things about this semester. For starters, I have straight A’s, I joined the D3 soccer team and I love the girls I’ve met, and the freedom of being able to come & go to the commuter campus suits my needs perfectly.
The only real negative thing I have to say is in regards to classes. Most of my credits transferred (thank gOD), but there were still classes I needed to make up. Two of those classes I’m taking now: one is a introductory class into my new major (read: a class with a bunch a freshman meanwhile I’m a Junior) and the second is public speaking aka my arch nemesis. Okay, that’s kinda harsh. I’m actually pretty decent at public speaking, but I don’t enjoy it one bit.
I think next semester will be even better than this one.
Life Update Part 2: Traveling
This year was the first time I’ve traveled in a long time. In May I went to Paris with my brother and Dad, which was one of the best experiences I’ve had to date.
This friday I have a mini-trip up to Connecticut with Erick and his family to go visit a lot of his family at a big party. I’ve never been up north past New York, so I’m really excited to get to see Connecticut for the first time. Even though it’s a short trip, traveling is still traveling.
Then, in a week from tomorrow, I’ll be hopping on a plane with my Mom to fly out to Colorado to visit my sister! If you also have siblings/family that lives far away – say, across the country – then you understand it kinda sucks. A lot. Especially when you’re super close with that given individual.
That’s actually how it is with all 3 of my older siblings. My siblings are really cool people, and I’m so happy they’re each off doing their own thing. But, of course I miss them, which is why I am SO excited to be able to go visit my sister to squeeze her and hug her and annoy her.
That pretty much wraps up all the traveling I think I’ll be doing in 2018, but at least I’ll be going out this year with a bang.
Life Update Part 3: Mental Health
Mental health is something that I care very deeply and personally for, but it’s not something I really talk about outside of close friends & family. Which is probably the same case for you, because it’s, well, personal.
I used to have issues in the past, which I touch on briefly in my about page. It ties into who I am today and also why I have this blog. I can also talk more about this is anyone else is interested/has similar struggles/wants to talk about it. If that’s a thing, let me know what you’d like to know.
I also mentioned in my why I transferred blog post that at my old school I was feeling really down and anxious. But, those problems really went away once I transferred. This semester I have been so happy and feeling like myself again. It feels so refreshing to be in a stable place mentally.
Again, like I said before, nothing is perfect; I still struggle with anxious thoughts and some mood swings/over thinking, but I can cope with them. Unlike before where I feel like that mentality would consume me, nowadays, it’s a temporary thing that I can manage.
I’ve been slacking a little bit on mental self-care tho
I just looked on twitter for 2o minutes looking for this one tweet I saw bc the quote was sO GOOD. But ofc I couldn’t find it, so, I’ll paraphrase it. Basically the quote said:
“I started thinking of anxiety as something that needs to be managed, like hunger or sleepiness, instead of something I have no control over. If I find myself hungry or sleepy, I see it as a reminder to eat or rest. If I find myself feeling more anxious, I think of it as a reminder to practice more self-care.” – Anonymous
Lately I haven’t been doing as much as I could to minimize my anxiety, and I can feel it.
But I’m working on being better for myself
Compared to where I was a year ago, or hell even 6 months ago, I’m doing a lot better. Anxiety is still more a part of my life than I’d like it to be, which is why I wan’t to do more to manage it. Especially with winter upon us. I’m aware of how the winter blues can affect me, too, so I’m trying to keep my mind occupied. I plan to do so by: meditating (I have an app), continuing to exercise and play soccer, blogging more frequently, and making other things like drawings, videos, etc. And also playing more games and in general trying to have more fun & not always need to do something productive.
Those are pretty much the biggest 3 things going on in my life that I felt like I needed to update you on. If there’s anything I mentioned here that you want me to talk more about, I’d be more than happy to make a post about it. Just head over here to my Ask page and you can anonymously ask me a question.
& on that note, I’ll see you tomorrow with another blogmas post.
Thanks for reading ❤