If You’re New Here, Let Me Fill You In
So I started this blog on January 1, 2018. New Year’s Day. Launching it that day was important to me because it felt like a new beginning. In a way, it was sort of a like a new year’s resolution to finally do the thing that I had been thinking about for months and months and just doing it. It was a big step for me.
But, the harsh truth is that sometimes when you start something new, you aren’t going to be very good at it. I didn’t realize it until now as we’re nearing the end of 2019 (almost 2 years later) that I had been going about blogging all wrong.
Instead of simply writing my heart out, I put on this “blogger” persona and shared mostly posts that were so… eh. Things like “April Favorites” and “Things To Do This Summer” and other things that had next to zero vulnerability to them at all. You’re probably bored of it, and honestly, I am, too.
My favorite things to read, including blog posts, are things that I can either connect with and/or gain some sort of value from them. There is a time and place for things like monthly favorites and lists of things to do, but they also have to be done right. And I definitely wasn’t doing them right.
Getting Comfortable with Being Uncomfortable
I’m so thankful for the cheesy “blogger” posts that I’ve shared over the years because you know what? It taught me something. I wasn’t ready back then to just jump in to sharing super personal stories. But I’ve worked my way up to it.
Those posts were me kind of testing the waters to see how it felt to write about things that were more “deep” and personal, and those posts are some of my favorites that I have here on my blog. I’m proud of the way I wrote them and about how I was able to connect with you guys reading.
Especially with my college transfer story. When I transferred schools, I was at such a low point and no where near where I wanted to be. Transferring was hard, but it was one of the most necessary and rewarding decisions I’ve ever made. And you know what’s crazy? I had so many people message me and say how similar my story was to theirs, and how it made them feel so good to know that someone else felt the same way they did and went through the same thing.
It just really makes me think… wow. What I write and the stories I share can really connect with people. And resonate with them. And make them not only feel something, but feel good.
“If we wait until we’re ready, we’ll be waiting for the rest of our lives.” – Lemony Snicket
This is seriously one of my all-time favorite quotes. Usually it gives me that little extra push I need when I’m feeling hesitant to start something.
The irony right now is that I actually do feel ready to start writing about more vulnerable, deep, and personal things here on my blog. Not that it isn’t still a bit nerve-wracking, but I’m comfortable with the fact that it’s going to feel a little big uncomfortable. But it’ll be worth it.
I feel like an entirely different person than I was when I started this blog, and that’s why I feel like starting over.
I’m not giving up writing about lifestyle things entirely – I’m just going to do them right. Dropping the whole “blogger” persona and just simply being… me.
But you can definitely expect more posts about more deep and personal topics, stories, lessons, and all that good stuff. Like things I have been avoiding talking about. Or real sh*t that we all deal with every day. Or the things I wish I knew about a looong time ago that maybe will help someone else.
I started my blog to just be me and do me in my little corner of the internet, and if other people can connect with it and relate to it, then that’s awesome. And it feels like I’m finally about to do that.
Here’s to starting over.